It only hurts when I breathe..

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 00:05:56 GMT

Longest weekend I've ever had. I don't think I belong being a dancer. I've never been more intimidated in my life. I guess that's how you improve, but it was horrible. At one point, I thought I was going to cry. The one thing i've ever enjoyed doing since I was like born, has gone down the tubes. *It was the West Coast Dance Explosion convention, if you're wondering. pfh* Some people are born to dance, you can just tell how they dance and how good they are, because they practice because they love it so much. Well without dance what am I going to do? I'd say be a conselour when I grow up, but I suck at advice. Guess it's the whole teenage thing of finding yourself. The best part of the weekends was the whole experience, and staying at Erica's of course. That was pretty darn fun. Sometimes I think too much, not about anything in particular, just life. It's weird, I picture life in the future, and it seems empty. I listen to people's advice, do I ever use it? no. This one guy at the convention really made sense. or maybe it was Tara Foy. I don't know but To suceed at something, you have to take risks.

Happy St. Pattie's Day

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 23:49:05 GMT

[[Happy St. Pattie's Day]]

Well today I ended up waking up at 9:20. haha, I looked at the clock and was like "What that hell is wrong with this clock?" But yeah, I missed band and english. And came in for the best class--social studies. ha, yeah rite. I had to sit in Ashton's seat cause she was sitting in mine. Let me just say..those three kids *ahem the retards* are annoying. jesus [is my homeboy. ahem]. But yeah. Math was boring..lunch was super cool, like always. Science was boring, so was core skills. and of course so was French. Then it was the daaaaance! Wow, it was so much fun. I miss all my girlies from last year..but i'll always love them. Me and Jill were cracking up at stupid stuff, like always. I saw my little friend..Lindsey, haha she's so cute. Someone was bugging us again *ahem* I hung out w/ Jess and Kel a lot..aww, it reminds me of the end of 7th grade. It was just a whole bunch of chaos..it was great.

[[I wanna hate y o u so bad]]

Anne Frank Play

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 21:30:59 GMT

It was so much more fun than i thought it would be--

I was in Julie Kay's mom's group. Talked with Christy before we got on the buses, i haven't talked with her in ages. Then we got on the buses, and Jiwwian was on my bus! haha, so yeah it was kinda boring on the way thurr, but we watched Finding Nemo. Then we got thurr, talked with people. Sat next to Kristen, Julie next to her. Kelly, Monica, and Karla behind us. I haven't talked with Monica and Kelly for a while, but Mackinac will so kick ass. Anyhoo, yeah the play was so fraeking boring but we made it fun ;-). Haha, then intermissionnnnn. Saw Rachel, her mom fell asleep. hah. Then i saw and talked to Jess and Meg, i love and miss them!. We were all kind of hyper and restless after intermission, then eventually it was done. Back on the buses. And dude, it snowed a lot, and the wind was blowing. It was horrible. But then on the bus..haha that's when the fun happened. JILL: he broke the chair!, spank the skank, deja vous, THUGS. yeah it was fun. then back to school, guess that was alrite. but yeah today was fun :) All my girls looked adorable, the guys..well they didn't look really any different. haha, but ugh ilikehimtoomuch. Then the dance is tomorrow, GO YOUNGINS. yeah we be partying it up tomorrow.

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 00:24:48 GMT

Yeah, I used to always think these were stupid but of course I'd post them anyways. So naturally..i put this one in hurr ;-). FILL IT OUT DAMNIT! haha gah i'm hyper. but please fill it out youngins

Have.......
|x| We ever gotten in a fight & about what:
|x| We ever danced with each other:
|x| You ever seen me cry:
|x| You ever hugged me:
|x| I ever offended you:
|x| You ever seen me naked:

Would.......
|x| You Ever Date me:
|x| You Ever Make out with me:
|x| You Ever Fight me:
|x| You Ever Laugh at me :

What......
|x| Is your first memory of me:
|x| Do i usually look like when you see me:
|x| Do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase:
|x| Is something embarrassing that i've done:
|x| Advice would you give me, in general:

Do You.......
|x| Think i am bitchy:
|x| Think we will be friends in 5 years:
|x| Think im hot:

Name one thing you really.......
|x| Don't like about me:
|x| Do like about me:

If we could.......
|x| Spend a day together what would we do:
|x| Give me a gift what would it be:

Random.......
|x| How long have we been friends:
|x| Tell about one memory we share together:
|x| Describe me in four adjectives:
|x| Has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
|x| Suggest a band / cd for me to listen to:
|x| Is there a song that reminds you of me:

this is insane

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 00:55:14 GMT

J'ai il mauvais, très mauvais [[I don't get it, liking this kid was unexpected. But it's driving me insane. I've got it bad. It's all horrible, have no chance, I never have a chance with anyone. Didn't talk to the kid all freaking day. We don't really "talk" but he jokes around, and makes me laugh. But not today. I am freaking crazy.]] by the way my words were faded rather waste some time with you </3</small>

i'd give up forever;;;//*

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 21:19:45 GMT

Yeah, it's the sad truth--

I have zero percent self control. And I'm weird and stupid and mean. At Least everyone is being honest. But how can people say that or even treat me like that , when they don't even know me? Some of them used to be my good friends in elementary, but ehh. Guess I'm just frustrated [but not depressed] with people's assumptions and how rude people can be sometimes.

Last few days have been good though. I always end up laughing no matter what because I have the greatest friends in the world. Even when they don't try, they cheer me up. I love them :)
My parents have been gone since Sunday, who's jealous? Yeah, you are. It's pretty awesome because they aren't here to yell at us anymore. Besides the fact both of my sisters act like they have to stay home because of me, even though I am 13 and can take care of my self, besides the whole getting to dance thing. Ugh
I was late for school today, because of the roller coaster project, so I wasn't warmed up for band so I didn't take the BUA today :-). mwahah
I miss last year. I wish it were summer.

Comment if you're cool, Oh you know you want too. Hah.

<333

ratherwastemytimewithyou.

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 02:22:54 GMT

Let me just say, I hate this. Comment if you care, too.

I hate how I'm afraid to talk to my best friends or any friends at that, because I'm scared of their reactions, and I'm scared of what they think of me. I can't tell anyone stuff anyone without them thinking I'm a complete mental case, having them worry, or having them completely blow it off. These fake smiles are making me sick. My fake smiles..and everyone elses. I'm sorry for whatever I did. I honestly have no idea, but there's something because people keep avoiding me. And I am not making it up this time, I wouldn't be feeling like this if it wasn't real. Because there's a line between saying that I feel a certain way, and actually feeling a way. I used to be able to talk to any friend, no matter who they are and whether or not we'd talk about problems I'd just feel happy, because I had someone to go to. Now when I'm feeling like a pile of shit, I have to live with that feeling cause there's no one to talk too. It's always someone else, never me. When people talk about other people [in the good way] they say 'oh "so & so" is soo funny' or '''so & so'' is the nicest person ever'. I want to have a place in life, somewhere to go..some friends to fall back on. That's all i want. No, that's all I need. A few friends. I try to help so people will keep coming back to me with problems but it doesn't seem to work. I miss everyone to death. I'm drifting too far away, I just want to come back. Back to reality

This is a feeling I can't explain too well, but maybe that's a good thing.

A small confession, I think I've finally lost it

And I'm drifting away from the people I really need//

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 20:18:50 GMT

I know inside, i want to live; it's just that i can't live like this. The same old ways, the same old days, the same old f a c e s. I'm looking for the right things to say.

Sat, 28 Feb 2004 00:48:25 GMT

wow, the last few days have been looking up..at least for me. Where should I start? hmm i'll just write about yesterday {Thursday}. The OTC field trip was stupid, Dr. E's talk made me think. I dunno what I was thinking about exactly, sometimes I wish I would've lived back then. Because back then, there were real problems that were actually important. Unlike my problems that I tend to create on my own. Oh well, and Me & Jiwwian *haha* were bad asses, we waited a few minutes after the Dance started and we went in through a door w/o paying. ;-). It wasn't that bad i guess, gave me something to do. And we were all amazed at how one person was following and another person so much, but damn it was annoying. And Ms. Jess won a priiiiize. Some parts of the dance *ahem* were saddening, but hey i still had a little bit of fun. Ithinkilikehimagain. one from last year/part of this year. At one point of the dance//the limbo part when everyone was crowded around, i was just standing watching. and him & someone else, don't remember who, were going to same spot [spot near/next to me] and him, being a guy; pushy and such..Slightly pushed who ever it was outta the way. And when he did, he ended up touching my arm for a second. Whoop, not a big deal, I know but I could feel my face getting red, and I went to stand somewhere else after a few minutes then Jill came to get me & I was burning up. Ahh, then after announcments in band he came to deliver something and how when you like someone & you see them around you try to make it look like you have friends and not a loner? Yeah, well I did that; Megs, Me & Jas were all sitting on the same seat so that was funny. I haven't talked to anyone about it yet, because everytime I do, i end up liking the person I talk about. Hmph. Today was actually really fun, I don't feel like explaining it cause..eh I dunno. but yeah.
Theresa : love you doll! always know that
Jess Ann : you'll make the rite choice hun. <333!
Jiwwian : 'hottie' valentine's cards were the greatest! Zitty man..eww
and Angela is obsessed with the word Penis. hmm
Oh, and danielle..Virgina Vagina, said it just for you ;-) haha

Why can't you hear bunnies having sex?
Because they have cotton balls.
haha

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 18:40:14 GMT

I've never been more confused rite now. Okay, nevermind. I probably have, but pfh. And I've never been more alone in my life. I don't get it. It's like I try to be happy to make people believe I'm happy because that's how I want to be known. Then when things are going okay *smack* something just goes wrong and other shit follows after it. It's so messed up. I miss last year more than anything, and if I could go back to it I would. I would do anything. But I can't, so I should get over it. But there's no way in hell that I can. I have no one true friend, I swear. I'm not close to anyone anymore, I thought i was but the more other people keep saying that they aren't..I realize that I'm not either. I mean I guess i'm somewhat close but then there's this doubt feeling. And if i was truly close to someone, I wouldn't have that doubt lingering around. I don't want to sound like a complainer but it's messed up. And you know it doesn't help when you make plans with someone, and they blow you off. Goddddd. I'm sick of watching people saying they know who they're friends are, or acting like they have confidence [even if they don't, they act like it]. I just want to know what's real, and if people are judging me. I try to talk to my old friends; like online and somewhat at school, considering we only have encore or lunch together but i'm scared that they're judging me. Everyone's changed so I don't even know how to act around anyone. They must be though, i know that. I try to open up to people cause that's how i was close with friends last year, if i opened up. But no one opens up to me, i guess cause i've never had it easy with opening up to them. I just want something to believe in for once..Anything.

AlmostParadise73: haha. karla did a lovely impression....haha, good times at the movies

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 20:46:59 GMT

And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am

Saturday *Hearts Day <3*: Wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. My parents always get us presents, so I got 3 shirts, a candle, and a yellow rose. hah. Then I got ready and was off to teammmm! It was actually pretty fun. We got our costumes, and there's different ones for the different 'groups'. Mine's this blue stuff/fabric with this fringey stuff, long sleeves and shorts. It's pretty sweet though. Mine and Sara's costumes were ''kissing'' haha, and when we were off to the side/doing our dance this little boy kept blowing on me and trying to make me 'blow' away. It was pretty boring, and the little girls thought he was my brother, and unfortunately since we have name tags pinned to our leotards cause there's so many of us, he knew my name..heh. And Erica [Strawberry] gave me Valentine's candy! hehe yumm. Then my parents went to the movies, so I watched Dirty Dancing..one of my new favorite movies, i love it :).

Sunday: Went to church and all that jazz. My parents went to my dad's friends for the Daytona 500 race. So I watched Ferris Bueller..another of my favorite movies. I don't remember what else I did..boring day I guess.

Monday: Well, I came online and talked to Emily and eventually we decided she was coming over. So she did at like 2ish? We watched TV for a bit and talked and goofed, cause we're just that awesome. We played Guess Who & sPit. lol. And we watched Room Raiders, and this dude was in his underwear..and everytime it showed him his penis area would just like grab attention, it was like whoa. lol Then we worked on the talent show dance//can't touch this. I actually know almost all of it know! mwahaha. And i was getting paranoid, cause Em sat on my back and it cracked..and if you break your spine, you're paralyzed. and ahh. heh, then she left eventually.

Tuesday: I went shoppppppping! With my mom and Amy, but hey it was shopping. First we went to Old Navy, cause Amy had a card thing. I got two tanks, and two other shirts. Then we stopped at PIER 1! cause it's rite next door and all. I got a latern thing of mah room. Then we went to the mall and stuff, I don't think I got anything thurr. Oh, at Bath and Body Works I got this little bath stuff in a purse. I only got it cause the purse was hotttttt. Hah, and a wall flower/to scent rooms. And came home and didn't do much..talked to people online and yeah.

Wednesday: It was my lazy day :) I didn't get changed til like 2ish. heh, and I tried finding pictures for my scrapbook, but I found pictures of Hertz and got all sad, so I had to stop with that. And I worked out a layout for my room and stuff.

Thursday: Well, Amy went to take her driving test/get her license but she failed the road test. She was really upset, I guess I would be too. She was mad, so just me and my mom went to Wendy's for lunch. We saw Mrs. Doyle and Alison [her daughter] Her older daughter was friends with Shelby, so we've known them for a while. So My mom and Mrs. Doyle were talking, and me and alison just basically sat thurr listening, hah. Mrs. Doyle thought I was 15..i like heck no. Ehh. Then I went to get my hair cut. It's not all the same length anymore, it's not a drastic change, just tappered in the front..I <3 it! yes yes.

Friday: Woke up and talked to Jill and Karla online about the movies. So we saw Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen, haha, it was soo gay, and the guys in the movie weren't even hot! lol. Oh, and Niraj met us thurr. haha yes Niraj, ah don't ask. I ended up sitting next to him & Karla, Jill on the other side of Karla and in the MJR trailer there's this phone noise, rite? Ok, well Niraj started like looking around and looked at Jill to see if it was her phone, it was so funny, I had to look the other one or else he'd see me laughing. haha, Then at a cheesy part..he was like cracking up. The preveiws were better than the movie, hah. The movie was done, so we talked and goofed off and stuff. And looked at JACOB SMITH. haha, what a little hottie..literally little heh. And these little kids kept looking at us, hmm I wonder why. Karla like swinging her hips around while she was talking, Me trying to imitate her, and Jill Putting her movie rewards card in the credit card thing. lol good times. Then the FUNNIEST thing when this kid tried to jump over that rope/divider thing and he..fell. flat on his face. lmao, it was hilarious.

Saturday/today: Danielle was supposed to come over, but she forgot she had to babysit. So know I'm pretty bored, but hyper at the same time. I'll update more about today later.

Sunday/tomorrow: I'll edit/update about this when it happens. I'm going to miss meg's house though!

wow. could life be any more confusing rite now?

whoopa169: im just pimpin

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 03:09:29 GMT

][ name: allison
][ birthday: 5.30.90
][ siqn: gemini
][ aqe: 13
][ sex: female
][ location: westbloomfield
][ school: CHS
][ qlasses/contacts: supposed to wear glasses but i don't
][ braces: ugh yeah
][ fat/skinny: fat. lol
][ tall/short: in between
][ do you like ketchup: it's aight.
][ do you like mustard: ew no
][ do you like mayonnaise: ahh yessss! haha
][ do you like pickles: yeah
][ do you like boys or qirls: haha boys.
][ do you like pickle relish: sorta?
][ do you like chicken: yeah
][ do you like spinach: noo
][ do you have any siblinqs: 2 sisters
][ what are their names: shelby & amy
][ how old are they: 22, 17
][ do you have any pets: yeah 1
][ what are their names: derby
][ what kind of pets are they: gerbil
][ do you like school: parts of it
][ if you could choose anyone to rule the world who would you choose?: idk?
][ do you like pokemon?: haha no
][ do you talk to voices in your head?: lol
][ do they tell you to do stuff?: oh yeah..mwahaha ;-)
][ do you listen?: sure.
][ have you ever had wet dreams about someone?: lol that reminds me of a degrassi episode
][ how often do you talk on the phone?: like never
][ how often do you surf the web?: not much
][ how often do you hanq out with friends?: ehh
][ do you love them?: of course!!
][ have you ever loved anyone?:
][ have you ever hooked up with someone?:
][ are you loopy?: huh? like DRUNK? lol
][ have you ever broken any bones?: yeah when i was like 1-2ish
][ how often do you shower?: usually everyday
][ which group do you hanq out with at school?: ugh i don't like that. "group". urg
][ do you qet qood qrades?: A's & B's
][ do you always get in trouble?: not really
][ do you qet along with your parents?: iffy.
][ are you qonna qo to colleqe?: i want to
][ who is your best qirl friend?: there's a few. and i <3 them
][ who is your best boy friend?:
][ who do you talk to the most on the phone?: um
][ who do you talk to the most on the net?: hmm..probably karla, jess, megs, danielle, jill, sara, ashleigh, etc.
][ email/snail mail?: email
][ do you like qold or silver jewelry?: silver
][ ever pranked a 1-8opo number?: 1-8opo?
][ ever tried to impress you crush but wound up embarrassinq yourself?: i don't recall, but probably.
][ what are you most afraid of?: too much shit.
][ are you weird?: i'd say so :)
][ how lonq does it take you to qet ready for school?: an hour
][ do you have a crush?: i guess u could call it that.
][ what are their names?: um.
][ do you sleep with one or 2 pillows?: 2
][ do you like coffee?: eww no
][ what's the lonqest you went out with someone?: haha. well no comment. cause eh yeah. <small> 12 hours. </small> yeah pirrrty sad.
][ do you reqret it?: yes. it's too weird now. & it's aggrivating.
][ how do you know the person who sent this to you?: lol i don't know the person
- where.
][ do you want to live?: somewhere other than hurr
][ is the most fun place to go?: umm
][ do you want to meet your husband/wife?: where..? uh i dunno
][ go to heaven/hell?: heaven..but hell is HOTTTT. kidddding
][ do you want to get married?: where..? on a beach/outside
- what.
][ do you like to do?: a lot of stuff
][ was the most fun retreat/trip you went on?: hmm
][ friend is always there?: jess, karla, jill.
][ relative sends you the most money for christmas?: no one sends money.
][ do you like about your church or school clique?: umm
][ do you want to be when you qrow up?: idk yet
][ do you want your husband's name to be?: i don't know
][ is your fave sport?: dancing. and screw u..it's a sport ;-)
][ is your fave peice of clothing?: ah i dunno

- have you in the past 24 hours.
][ cried?: yeah.
][ qotten in major trouble?: no
][ cut your hair?: nope. 29 hours ago i did
][ ate a meal?: yea
][ hugged someone?: no
][ kissed someone?: no
][ made a new friend?: no
][ lost something?: not that i kno of

- have you ever.
][ been so drunk you passed out?: all the time. kidding.
][ gone out in public in your pj's?: yeah
][ had an imaginary friend?: yea
][ cried during a chick flick?: duh
][ owned a new kid's on the block cd?: nope
][ gotten into a car accident?: yeah
][ liked someone so much you cried?: ugh.
][ cussed when your parents were around?: nope. i'd be beaten
][ sung in front of the mirror?: haha yes.
][ made faces in the mirror?: yesiree
][ spent more than 1 hour on your hair?: nope
][ sleep-walked/talked in your sleep?: mum says i mumble
][ watched a scary movie and couldn't sleep at niqht?: yes!! ahh
][ gone caroling: nope

- movies.
][ funniest: no idea
][ stupidest: confessions of a teenage drama queen! lol
][ could watch over and over aqain: ferris bueller, wayne's world, or dirty dancing
][ last movie you saw?: confessions of a teenage drama queen
][ who do you qo to the movies with?: friends
][ made you cry the most: a walk to remember, save the last dance, powder
][ did you like titanic?: it was aight

- would you ever.
][ jump out of a plane?: probably not
][ kiss your best guy friend?:
][ go bungee jumping?: actually..yeah, i want to
][ stay in your room for a whole day?: if i was sick
][ go in the snow w/o clothes?: ah noo
][ skinny dip?: no..self concious
][ drink salt water?: already have
][ touch road kill?: EW
][ take a job even if it meant you'd be away from your guy (or qirl)?: yeah.
][ smile at your worst enemy?: lol i do all the time. i mean..cough
][ play 8,ooo bowling games in one night?: impossible
][ go to reno to get married?: no
][ gamble?: nah
][ have a makeout party?: hmm
][ throw a party without your parents?: hmm
][ go to a foreign country?: yea
][ fly a plane?: nooo>

BostonGirlK32: shaaa weet

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 23:52:23 GMT

~~wow. isn't that great? haha i love it! heh~~
damn//it didn't work. hmph

stand inside a crowd, i wanna scream out loud..that i'll be ok

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 02:57:59 GMT

Hurr's another survey! like my 023957 one? heh
*{Name}*-Allison
*{Nicknamez}*-Al, Ale, Al Bal, Ale marie, Flounder, Harriet, Tam Tam, Nosilla, Flat P, etc.
*{Birthday}*-5.30.90
*{Age}*-13
*{Location}*-Michigan
*{Sexual Preference}*- damn straight
*{Marital Status}*- single, of course.
*{Current Haircolor}*-blonde
*{Eyecolor}*-blue
*{Syblings?}*-2 sisters
*{Pets?}*- gerbil

.o´F a v o r i t e z`x.

*{Color}*- pale yellow, pink, lite orange, lite green. haha
*{Animal}*-PENGUIN
*{Flower}*- all types of lilys, and yellow roses
*{Soda}*-root beer
*{Food}*-Pizza//Chicken Greek Salad//Mexican food
*{Group}*- uh, bands? eh too many
*{Singer}*-too manyy
*{Rapper}*-luda babaay
*{Song}*- too damn many. *currently* tomorrow//lillix, fall//something corporate, i believe in a thing called love//the darkness, iris//goo goo dolls, hey mama//B.E.P
*{Movie}*- DIRTY DANCING, ferris bueller, wayne's world
*{Tv Show}*- OC mos def. oh, and one tree hill

.o´D i s l i k e s`x.

*{Color}*- brown or blood red
*{Animal}*-snakes! ew
*{Flower}*-umm
*{Soda}*-coke & pepsi
*{Food}*- onions.

o´P r e f e r e n c e s`x.
*{Water/Soda}*-Soda
*{Red/Blue}*- blue
*{Dogs/Cats}*-dogs
*{Roses/Daisies}*- roses
*{Beer/Liquor}*- lol neither.
*{Hair-Short/Long}*- long
*{Boots/Shoes}*-shoes
*{Food-Mexican/Italian}*- mexican
*{Day/Night}*-night

.o´H a v e · Y o u · E v e r`x.

*{Smoke?}*-no
*{Pot?}*-no
*{Drank?}*-no
{Cheated on someone?}*- no…
*{Been married?}*- too young
*{Been divorced?}*- see above.
*{Are you psycho?}*- better belive it
*{Schizophrenic?}*- haha
*{Depressed?}*- yea, but not lately :)!
*{Suicidal?}*- used to be

.o´H a v e · Y o u · E v e r`x.

*{Kissed someone}*- ugh
*{Been in love}*- no sir
*{Been so drunk you blacked out}*- haha, just last nite. just kidding dolls!
*{Cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend}*-no
*{Kept a secret from everyone}*- who hasn't?
*{Set a body part on fire}*- ew no
*{Prank called someone}*- of course ;-)
*{Been on stage}*- yessiree
*{Gotten in a car accident}*- yes, other people driving of course.

.o´D o · Y o u`x.

*{Wear eye shadow}*- yeah
*{Have a dog}*- not anymore.
*{Want a tattoo, and where}*- a tiny one
*{Have any regrets}*- hell yeah.
*{Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend}*- hah no.
*{Crush}*- i guess you could call it that.
*{Do you have a best friend}*- yes. more than one actually
*{Who do you go to for advice}*- Jess, Karla, Danielle, Jill, and some others depending on the topic
*{Who knows all your secrets?}*- no one knows 'all secrets'

.o´Y e s · O r · N o`x.

*{Are you smart?}*- not really
*{Do you like V-8?}*- never tried it
*{How bout the Splash kind?}*- no
*{Do you read your horoscope?}*- haha, yes i'm a loser like that
*{Do you believe in that stuff?}*- sometimes...sadly
*{Can you do a cartwheel?}*- haven't tried in years
*{Do you have bangs?}*- everyone has bangs. so yes, but they are grown out
*{Do you wear glasses?}*- no but i should, heh.
*{Do you wear contacts?}*-nope
*{Braces?}*- ugh yea.
*{A retainer?}*-not yet
*{Can you drive?}*- nope
*{Do you snore?}*- i don't think so
*{Do you drool?}*- haha yes
*{Do you talk in your sleep?}*- mum says i mumble.
*{Do you like onions?}*- eww no
*{Do you like cotton candy?}*- yes
*{Do you like pina coladas?}*-shure?
*{Do you keep a journal?}*- yessir
*{Do you like to dance?}*- duh of course!
*{Do you like to sing?}*- in the shower//car//in my room
*{Are you any good at it?}*- nooo
*{Are you too sexy for your clothes?}*- what clothes? just playin!
*{Do you like to talk on the phone?}*-yes

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 02:10:00 GMT

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. ~~Beautiful physically and mentally.~~ Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. ~~Dislike being at home.~~ Restless. Not having many children. ~~Hardworking.~~ High spirited. Spendthrift.

People are gay sometimes..

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 21:26:19 GMT

ugh i'm not going to use names, cause i'll feel guilty but..:

let's call thes 'two people' susie & john, aight? ok.

well we all got talking about how you dress describes the music you listen to and shit. well i didn't agree at all. i listen to a lot of types of music, and mostly rock/alternative. and so susie and john started to judge me by saying 'if you're a real "rocker" you'd dress like one' and all that shit. it made me mad, cause they kept saying all this shit & judging me by the way i dress. i mean the people who listen to rock or whatever you wanna call it are skaters & wear those shoes & dress with the brand names and crap usually, it's just an instinct. but since i don't dress like that i just can't like rock music? rite. i told susie & john if i listen to rap/hip hop [which i do sometimes] i'd have to dress all ghetto? and they just gave me the silent treatment. i dont understand, it's just how you dress & the music you listen to. why is thurr such a big controversy? geeze.

--X--comment--X--
either to give advice/or tell me if you agree or disagree with the thing of the way you dress shows the type of music you listen to.

haha all you kiddos are still in school..BAM, gotta love those ortho appts.

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 19:35:28 GMT

-*.Name - Allison
-*.What time is it - 2:14

-*.THE FRUITS OF YOUR LABOR( things you can't live without).*-

-*.Something important on your desk - well not MY desk, but computer
-*.When you sleep you wear - PJ pants & tank
-*.If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy - new house/bigger house and clothes
-*.Something you don't have a lot of - hmm shoes i guess?
-*.If your house was burning and you could only save 3 items what would they be - well i hope my fam would get out of the house/i wouldn't have to save them, sooo umm. many clothes as i can get, journal!, scrapbook

-*.MORALS.*-

-*.If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to - alcohol
-*.A time when you purposly hurt someone emotionally - i don't?
-*.A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally - no one i don't think?
-*.One person you have killed in your thoughts- haha wellllll ;-)

-*.FRIENDS.*-

-*.Three traits you look for in a friend - honesty/easy to trust, easy to talk to, fun to be with.
-*.Who makes you laugh most often - probably karla or jess..funny girls.
-*.A friend who you can tell anything - jess, danielle, karla, emily
-*.A friend you can got to for advice - mos def karla & jess
-*.The best piece of advice you had been given - don't expect change, make it
-*.Three closest friends- can't pick i guess
-*.The friend who uses most of your energy - lol um ewW?

-*.EGO.*-

-*.Your 3 best qualities - i try to be honest i guess? try to help others, & umm i don't know
-*.Your 3 worst qualities - hmm im fat/ugly lol, i bitch at people, can't be myself
-*.Describe your Ideal self - skinner, friendlier, and more outgoing mos def
-*.A compliment that makes you blush -...
-*.You are embarassed when - i say an answer in class and it's wrong.
-*.The greatest physical pain you ever endured - lol CRAMPS. gotta hate them
-*.The greatest emotional pain you ever endured - um well..
-*Moment you are most ashamed of - dont know
-*.Your best physical feature - pffh none
-*.Who/What makes you happy - being with my friends :)
-*.Who/what makes you sad - being alone

-*.EMOTIONS.*-

-*.Emotion you hide most - liking someone [well at school], and uh idk
-*.The emotion you tend to experience most - wanting someone to care for me
*The emotion you are feeling most lately - probably depressed. but i've been happy the past few days
-*.You have a huge amount of guilt regarding - umm.
-*.When you are angry you need - to cry. or ___
-*.When you are sentimental you need - i dont love
-*.When you are in love you need - ...

-*.MEMORIES.*-

-*.One of your most peaceful memories- up north/on that swing place where meaghen's grandparents have a cabin/live
-*.One of your most tragic memories- when grandma died.
-*.A memory that makes you laugh - way too many kiddos!
-*.A memory that makes you happy - last year.

-*.LOVE.*-

-*.Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive - anything funny, or that half smirk thing..whoa.
-*.Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive - try to be funny, when it ain't workin, and eh
-*.Two things appealing about people - umm
-*.A personality trait you find appealing - sense of humor
-*.Your secret passion- dont know
-*.What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship - ...

-*.RELATING.*-

-*.Do you have a bf/gf if yes who - no
-*.What do you find sexy about them - ...
-*.A place where you want to have sex - not old enough kids.
-*.A strange place where you have had sex - um well i haven't
-*.What drives you crazy (in a good way) about a person - eyes. ass. hands. sweet heart
-*.What music is on when you have sex, or is it the tv - um?
-*.Favorite song to have sex to - um?
-*.Describe your ideal mate physically - abs all the way haha, gorgeous eyes..eek. muscliar, hands where you can see the vains/bone things, not super nasty though.
-*.Describle your idealmate's personality - funnnnny, smartie pants, able to make the best outta a situation, sweet heart

-*.FINALLY.*-

-*.If you had more time alone you would - write.
-*.If you had more patience you would - be happy
-*.If you could change one thing about your physical appearance what would it be - being pretty or skinny/ not sure which one
-*.If you had no committments what would you be doing - ha nothing
-*.If you could have one super power what would it be- to read minds
-*.If you could start all over - be more outgoing, so it wouldn't be a drastict change when i try to be outgoing.
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Mon, 09 Feb 2004 23:24:28 GMT

take that and rewind it back

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 01:34:09 GMT

this weekend was soo much fun! it was ballet production weekend, and i wasn't alone this year. It was pretty awesome, i laughed so freaking much! i loved it. so many good times/inside jokes. especially the whole 'skittles' thing, wow. awesome, and annoying. oh and the 'lesbos'. eww. haha, and i have a flat penis..yes. you're jealous. and i ate so much too// cough diet cough.

Flat P. Strawberry. Flow. Respect. Zip
Me. Erica. Sarah. Ashleigh. Melissa

surveys cause i'm super bored//*

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 22:10:00 GMT

.. . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .
1) Pierce your nose or tongue? nose
2) Be serious or be funny? funny
3) Drink whole or skim milk? whole i guess.

. . . A R E Y O U . . .
4) Simple or complicated? hmm i have a simple life, but i'm not sure.

. . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . .
5) Flowers or angels? flowers
6) Grey or gray? gray
7) Color or black-and-white photos? black and white
8) Lust or love? love
9) Sunrise or sunset? sunset
10) M&Ms or Skittles? skittles
11) Rap or rock? both
12) Staying up late or waking up early? staying up late mos def
13) TV or radio? radio
15) Eating apples or oranges? eek neither

. . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . .
16) Do you have a crush? yeah.
17) Who is it? bb

. . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . .
18) Being hot or cold? cold
19) Tall members of the opposite sex? taller than moi
20) Sun or moon? moon
21) Emeralds or rubies? uh i dont know
22) Left or right? right
23) Having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 best friend
24) Sun or rain? rain
25) Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? vanilla
26) Boys or girls? well i guess it depends on the way you want this question answered. love interest = boys. girls understand? hah
27) Green beans or carrots? carrots
28) Low fat or fat free? low fat

. . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . .
29) What is your biggest fear in the world? eek.
30) Kids or no kids? kids [when im older]
31) Cat or dog? dog
32) Half empty or half full? half empty
33) Mustard or ketchup? ketchup
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? soft
35) Newspaper or magazine? magazine
36) Sandals or sneakers? sandals
37) Wonder or amazement? wonder
38) Red car or white car? red
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? happy and poor
40) Singing or dancing? dancing all the way
41) Hugging or kissing? kissing
42) Corduroy or plain? plain?
43) Happy or sad? happy!
45) Blondes, brunettes? blondes have more fun ;-)

. . . A B O U T Y O U . . .
What time is it? 4:51
Full name? Allison Marie White
Nicknames: eh don't feel like naming them all
Names and ages of siblings? 22 shelby, 17 amy.
Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake? 2. haha one 1, and one 3 = 13! funny how that works.
Date that you regularly blow them out? may 30th
Pets? 1
Height? 5'3-4''ish
Eye color? blue
Hair color? blonde
Piercing(s)? 0

. . . W H A T D O Y O U W A N T . . .
Where do you want to live? not sure
How many kids do you want? 2 or 3
What kind of job do you want? no idea
Do you want to get married? yes

. . . W H I C H I S B E T T E R . . .
2 doors or 4 (on a car)? 4
Coffee or ice cream? ice cream
Shampoo or conditioner? conditioner
Bridges or tunnels? bridges
One pillow or two? two

. . . F A V O R I T E S . . .
Salad dressing? ranch
Color of socks? white
Toothpaste? crest
Food? mexican
Toothbrush? purple one?
Alcoholic drink? ha
Non-alcoholic drink? root BEER. lol

1 MINUTE AGO: watching 7th heaven
1 DAY AGO: ballet rehearsel
1 WEEK AGO: umm i dunno
1 YEAR AGO: i was happy :)

Current Clothes: jeans, powerpuff girl shirt!
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: none
Current Taste: nothing?
Current Hair: ponaaay
Current Annoyance: eeeeeek no comment
Current Smell: warm vanilla sugar
Current thing I should be Doing: nothing really
Current Desktop Picture: PENGUINS
Current Favorite Show: the OC!! one tree hill, what i like about you
Current Book: a corner of the univers
Current Movie In VCR: nothing, dont use it
Current Refreshment: sunkist
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Last Cigarette:: ewwww
Last Car Ride:: to school
Last Kiss:: well 'that way'..never.
Last Good Cry: yesterday
Last Library Book checked out:: speak, a corner of the universe
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:: chasing liberty
Last Book Read:: umm i dunno
Last Movie Rented:: don't remember
Last Cuss Word Uttered:: shit
Last Beverage Drank: sunkist
Last Food Consumed:: cheese
Last Crush:: tom & keith. yeah; i dont like them anymore
Last Phone Call:: sister
Last TV Show Watched:: trl//rite now
Last Time Showered:: this morning
Last Shoes Worn:: blue tennis shoes
Last CD Played:: britney spears :)
Last Item Bought:: eek don't remember
Last Download:: no idea..too long ago
Last Annoyance:: umm no comment
Last Disappointment:: urg. once again; no comment.
Last Soda Drank:: sunkist
Last Thing Written:: umm
Last Key Used:: ummmmmm
Last Word Spoken:: no sir
Last Sleep:: last night
Last IM:: erica f
Last Sexual Fantasy:: haha
Last Weird Encounter:: um, i don' tknow
Last Ice Cream Eaten:: whoa, while ago
Last Time Amused:: that kid that had to come into science..haha, that was so funny
Last Time Wanting To Die:: well yesterday
Last Time In Love:: haven't been
Last Time Hugged:: today..mom! lol
Last Time Scolded:: um
Last Time Resentful:: hmm
Last Chair Sat In:: my computer chair
Last Lipstick Used:: this pink shit for dance
Last Underwear Worn:: the blue ones i be wearin rite now
Last Bra Worn:: navy one i be wearin rite now
Last Shirt Worn:: this powerpuff girls one
Last Webpage Visited:: Livejournal.

mwahaha. that was fun *not* hehe bye kidds

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 02:39:50 GMT

i haven't updated since christmas. hah. well hurr's a survey--//*

-- Name: Allison
-- Birth date: 5.30
-- Birthplace: macomb?
-- Current Location: west bloomfield
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Hair Color: blonde
-- Height: 5'3/4ish"
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: gemini

to:
-- Your heritage: polish, french, british? lol
-- The shoes you wore today: um my blue ones, oh and my clogs to church
-- Your weakness: ugh.
-- Your fears: friends or family dying, clowns
-- Your perfect pizza: pepperoni, green peppers, black olives
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: um. i dunno
thri:
-- Your most overused phrase: hah, lol, okay, silly goose
-- Your thoughts first waking up: what time is it
-- Your best physical feature: none
-- Your bedtime: whenver i fall asleep
-- Your most missed memory: 7th grade

for:
-- Pepsi or Coke: neither
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger king
-- Single or group date: group
-- Adidas or Nike: adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: neither.

feyve:
-- Smoke: never
-- Swear: yup
-- Sing: yeah, tres mal though
-- Take a shower: yes
-- Have a crush: urg.
-- Want to go to college/university: yeah.
-- Like(d) high school: haven't been thurr yet
-- Want to get married: yeah.
-- Believe in yourself: ha no
-- Get motion sickness: naw
-- Think you're attractive: psh, course not
-- Think you're a health freak: haha hell no.
-- Get along with your parent(s): sometimes
-- Like thunderstorms: i like the rain part. but thunder/lightning..no
-- Play an instrument: clarinet..band geek all the way!

In the past month:
-- Drank alcohol: nope
-- Smoked: nope
-- Done a drug: nope
-- Had Sex: nope
-- Made Out: no
-- Gone on a date: nope
-- Gone to the mall?: no
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: ew no
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: yeah. yesterday actually
-- Been dumped: nope
-- Dumped someone: nope
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: too cold silly.
-- Dyed your hair: nope
-- Stolen anything: nope

sevin:
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: no
-- If so, was it mixed company: ----
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: haha naw
-- Been caught "doing something": no
-- Been called a tease: no
-- Gotten beaten up: no
-- Shoplifted: no
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no

ate:
-- Age you hope to be married: like 23-25
-- Numbers and Names of Children: too far in the future
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: in australia.
-- How do you want to die: old age/in sleep
-- Where you want to go to college: U of M!
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: not sure
-- Where would you most like to visit: australia.

nein:
In a guy..
-- Best eye color? a dark color
-- Best hair color? doesn't matter just no like blue err green err something like that.
-- Short or long hair: either, but not to long
-- height: doesn't really matter
-- Best weight: haha, just not fat. lol, yeah i'm mean.
-- Best articles of clothing: khaki shorts. good times last year =/
-- First date location: dunno
-- First kiss location: dont care

tenn:
-- # of drugs taken illegally: none
-- # of people I could trust with my life: not sure
-- # of CDs that I own: tons
-- # of piercings: none
-- # of tattoos: none..yet. mwahaha
-- # of scars on my body: whoa. a lot
-- # of things in my past that I regret: too many to count

yeah well comment. I'll update when I actually get a life. Hah.
<333
ale

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 13:21:08 GMT

Merry Christmas Everyone! I hope ya'll have an awesome one! <3

a big ole survey for ale!

Wed, 24 Dec 2003 23:05:25 GMT

1. Name: allison
2. Nicknames: ale, al, big al, tameeka/tam tam, harriet, snowwhite, alebarkark, ehh more.
3. Nationality: polish, french, british [?]
4. Feet size: 7-8
5. Do you have a crush: nope. i can actually say that i don't like anyone..but i'm sure it'll all change eventually
6. Age you act: depends on my mood and who i'm with
7. Where Do You Live: michigan
8. Where you want to live: here.
9. Birthplace: macomb
10. Favorite Salad Dressing: ranch
11. Ever gone skinny dipping?: well...not exactly..in a way
12. What are you watching?: MTV
13. Last person you talked to verbally: mum
14. Favorite movie: death becomes her, finding nemo, center stage, dickie roberts
15. Favorite Book: define 'normal', what my mother doesn't know
16. Favorite Type of music: alternative
17. Favorite types of cars: ehh
18. Favorite Actor/Actress: too many
19. Favorite Saying: hah nice or hah zesty or mos def
20. Favorite Fast Food: hardees or taco bell
21. Favorite Ice Cream: mint choco. chip!!
22. Favorite Alcoholic Drink: eh
23. When Do You Go To Sleep: when i'm too tired to keep my eyes open
24. Most Embarrassing Moment: wow i'm just a bag of embarressing moments
26. Craziest Person you know: hmm that's a toughy
27. Favorite holiday: christmassssss
28. Favorite Food: mexican
29. Favorite Song: too many
30. Favorite Television Show(s): The OC
31. Favorite Radio Station: 89x or 101.1
32. Favorite junk food: ehh
33. Favorite color hair: blonde
34. Favorite color: yellow
35. Favorite Sneakers: hm
36. Favorite video game: pshh gay
37. Favorite animal: PENGUIN
38. Favorite fragrance: hah.

Section 2: THE FUTURE:

1. School: as in college? U OF M ALL THE WAY
2. Where You Want To Live: i dont know
3. How Many Kids You Want: 1-2
4. What Kind Of Job You Want: a good one?
6. Wedding dress color: white?
7. Bridesmaids dresses: light blue
8. Age to wed: whenever its the right time
9. Wedding: jesus i don't know!
10. Honeymoon: australia
11. Baby girl's name(s): melody, melanie
12. Baby boy's name(s): nick
13: Future Pets: pup

Section 3: HAVE YOU EVER:

1. Been In Jail: nah
2. Done Drugs: nope
3. Run Away From Home: no
4. Said I love you and meant it: i suppose
5. Lied: yep ;-)
6. Stolen Anything: no not since i was little
7. Broken A Bone: yea
8. Cheated On A Test: yea
9. Cheated On A Boyfriend:
10. Gotten Drunk: no
12. Been In The Hospital: yea, for like 3 hours if that counts..
13. Screamed at someone for no reason: all the time silly
14. Fell asleep in the shower/bath: once
15. Gone to Church: err yea, every sunday
16. Never slept during a night: yea
17. Been on a hike: sortaish
18. Been to a camp: no.
19. Sat in a restaurant w/o ordering: hmm
20. Seen someone die: thank god no.
21. Gone a week w/out shaving: yep
22. Didn't wash your hair for a week: i couldnt do that i'd feel too greasy
23. Broken something valuable: i dont know
24. Knew you were in love: nope
25. Streaked the streets: hah no

Section 4: WHICH IS BETTER:

1. Coke Or Pepsi: NEITHER..eww
2. Cats Or Dogs: dogs
3. Dvds or VHS: DVD
4. Deaf Or Blind: deaf
5. Pools Or Hot Tubs: pools
6. Television Or Radio: radio
7. Cds Or mp3's: CDs
8. Apples or oranges: apples
9. Gap or Old Navy: Old Navy

Section 5: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU:

1. Took A Shower: yesterday
2. Cried: today
3. Watched a Disney movie: hmm few days ago
4. Given/gotten a hug: today from my mom
5. Been to the movies: about a week ago or somethin
6. Kissed someone: ehh

Section 6: WHAT IS:

1. Your Fondest memory Of This year: way too many
2. Your Most Prized Possession: hmm
3. The Thing That Makes You The Happiest: having fun with friends
4. Your Favorite Food For Breakfast: french toast
5. Your Favorite Food For Dinner: chicken greek salad
6. Your Favorite Slow Song: kelly clarkson - a moment like this

Section 7: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT:

1. Bill Clinton: pssh gay
2. Love at First Sight: only 'attraction' at first sight
3. AHH WHERE'D IT GOO?!
4. Teenage smoking: thats sick and a waste of time. oh yea- it makes you look like a ugly retard
5. Pot: see above
6. Eating disorders: hmm
7. Rap: love it
8. Marilyn Manson: lol
9. Premarital sex: bad bad bad. lol
10. Suicide: no comment
11. Drinking: eh not really worth it
12. Life: live it to the fullest!
13. Death: you go when its your time
14. God: he's up thurr

Section 8: RANDOM QUESTIONS

1. What are your favorite forms of jewelry/accessories: bracelets
2. Have you ever liked someone too young for you? no
3. Do you think you have multiple personalities?: haha yessss
4. Ever walked in on someone changing or showering? no
5. What is the first thing you say on the phone? hello or hey
6. What are you wearing? yellow shirt, black pants
7. What did you do yesterday? sat at home

01. Who is your role model:
02. What are some of your pet peeves: AH omg. when people chomp like they're cows, people tapping they're pencils, when people bite they're nails, when people tap the back of my chair, umm i think thats it
03. Have you ever liked someone you didnt have a chance with: dude yea
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: you better believe ittt
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: not really..
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): yeah =/
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: yeah
08. Would you rather be the dumper or the dumped?: eh
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship
10. Want someone you don't have right now: umm
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: no
12. Do you want to get married: yea
13. Do you want kids: yea
14. Do you believe in psychics: haha
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: no
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: nothing?
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: hmm
18. Are you happy with you: i guess..can't complain TOO much
19. Are you happy with your life: right now..mostly
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: be more outgoing

[ Current Clothes ] yellow shirt. black pants. yellow socks
[ Current Mood ] excited
[ Current Music ] none..im watching full house ;-)
[ Current Taste ] a gross taste in mah mouth
[ Current Make-up ] i wiped it all off by rubbing my eyes
[ Current Hair] ehh up in a messy bun..it looks like shit rite now
[ Current Annoyance] eh
[ Current Smell ] CANDLES
[ Current thing I ought to be doing ] having fun
[ Current Desktop Picture] penguins
[ Current Favorite Artist ] idk
[ Current Favorite Group ] the ataris, releint k, story of the year, trapt
[ Current Book you're reading ] nothing
[ Current CD in CD Player ] a burned one
[ Current DVD in player ] um
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] nothing
[ Current Refreshment ] eh
[ Current Worry ] that someone is doing something they shouldn't be..because it stupid

firsts
First best friend: i dunno..julie kay was my first FRIEND thou
First real memory of something: christmas in UT when i was 3
First car: ...
First date: ...
First real break-up: ...
First job: ...
first screen name: Lake61
First self purchased album: hmm B*witched
First funeral: grandma
First pets: hertz..=/
First credit card: ...
First true love: ...
First enemy: omg ahh no comment
First big trip: summer 00
First play/musical/performance: ...

Mon, 22 Dec 2003 20:50:56 GMT

I AM: bored and confused
I THINK: that it should snow
I KNOW: that things will never be the same
I WANT: friends.
I HAVE: a song blasting
I WISH: people would accept & understand me as i am.
I FEAR: CLOWNS! ahh
I HEAR: 89x
I WONDER: if things will ever change.
I REGRET: too much.
I LOVE: you
I CARE: about my friends
I ALWAYS: piss people off
I AM NOT: ready for highschool next year.
I DANCE: whenver i feel like it
I SING: in the shower & in the car
I CRY: too much
I DO NOT ALWAYS: act like a bitch
I FIGHT: for my right to parrrrrtaay. hah
I WRITE: in my journal.
I WIN: nothing.
I LOSE: all feelings
I CONFUSE: myself.
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: at my computer..haha
I NEED: aboyfriend.
I AM HAPPY ABOUT: shani comming to visit during the summer

Fri, 19 Dec 2003 23:17:41 GMT

New journal.
We had no school today, i guess that was pretty sweet. Got some x-mas shopping done, but i had killer cramps. My break is so going to suck, i hate this year. I wish i had at least one person to tell everything to, and always with, cause everytime i blink i'm getting left behind. And i still miss my dog, and we have no christmas decorations up..not even our damn tree. I hate it. Random cry outburts. acting like a retard. C+ on science ch. 2 test. bitching people out left and right. I guess it's just one of those weeks..
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